Rainy day

Most of the busiest days tend to go by the fastest.

*poof* and it's 5PM.

I love my Fridays because I don't have any classes and it allows me to werk werk werk werk werk.

THE Question

"What are you going to do after you graduate?"

I've been asked this question countless times. I've also asked others this questions many times too, perhaps in hopes that I could find an answer to that question. 

I remember being asked this question during my first year in uni. I probably said "I don't know," and the answer I'd get would be something like "Don't worry, you still have time."

Now, just a few months away... and my answer is still "I don't know." 

Stumble in Spring

Since it is my last Spring quarter in my undergraduate journey... and the days are going super duper fast, I'll try to write about the mundane, the interesting, and the crazy stuff that I stumble upon every day until my graduation! 

And is happy

I was floating in the sea today. And I saw a Hawksbill turtle's head emerged from the waves less than two meters away from me. It took a breath with its mouth open, and dove back into the waters.

It was beautiful. 

Surprise Sunday

You gave Your life

To give me mine

You say that I am free

How can it be

COUGH, I'm alive

Today we got to send off our oldest :P cousin at the airport after her two weeks of PARTAY here. A wave of emotions hit me when I got into the airport.  A storm coming out of nowhere, GEEZ o.O In my silent walk with my family towards the check-in line, I tried hard to hold back my tears. 

When I finally could recognize what I was feeling, I realize that I wanted to go home too.
I know that there are people who have not been home for many years, I admire your perseverance. 

It's been more than a year now that I have not been home. And the tendency to miss home, my friends and family is becoming... a little less bearable.

Oh my family and friends from home, I really do think about you all. 
And I miss miss miss spending time with you, you and all of you. 

Just saying (: 

Dr. Cristina Yang

She,

has played such an inspiring role, 
in the show, and in my life. 

Bold, confident, impenetrable.

She has shown me that it is O.K. 
to hold it all in sometimes,
but times of letting go is a necessary part too. 

Source: Google Images

Do what you love, love what you do

love so amazing

I love love. 

I am so grateful to have the chance to meet people,
kind, caring, patient, open and accepting.
I am gratified to have a group of friends 
ambitious, empowering, and loving. 
They keep me going. 

And also nature, 
beautiful, majestic,
and filled with wonders.
It keeps me going. 

I love that we're all connected some way somehow. 

It lives. We live. 

break or blend

For the past few weeks, I've actually got bothered by the little things around me. 

I just feel so trapped in a system,
social norms for instance, what you ought or expected to do, or not to,
the feeling which you don't feel like you're in control of your very own life,
I mean I'm not saying that I like to be in control,
because He runs the game,
even though I must admit that sometimes I do want to be in control,
but it's just that feeling,
that leaves you feeling like there is no other way,
you must do this, or you must listen to what he or she say,
or else you can't move forward. 

There's this force,
just pushing me to a direction that I don't intend to go,
that's what's bothering me,
I am bothered by myself,
I feel like it's all in me, 
right?

How we end up here or there,
in the end,
it all comes down to our decisions,
whether we want to go with the flow, 
the flow of current that will lead you somewhere that you don't intend to be,
somewhere you could have avoided,
or,
to wreck that force that's holding us back,
trying, hoping and believing,
once again. 

Be brave, 

be kind.

Hello, 2014.

"The seasons always change  

And life will find a way"

Somehow I feel like I've creeped into this new year, 
unaware that it is already twenty-fourteen, 
even though ironically, I went for the NYE countdown at Grand Park L.A,
counting down those last 10s, I felt nothing, indifferent in fact, 
felt like it was just another day. 
Why not countdown every day.


Oh well, cheers all, to life.

yesterday's gone, is that so?

There is always a reason why you met her/him.

I probably said this before, but isn't it a little odd how sometimes the person that you've met just recently can seem to relate to you more than friends that you've known for almost your whole life. That sense of vulnerability that you're willing to let go from yourself when you're with her/him. Secrets that you've never told anyone before, or just weird thoughts that you have in mind. 

And once revealed, you'll then realize how much you both have in common, even though it seems like it is impossible that someone could have experienced something similar. Mind-blowing!

I always thought that, why would i want to tell others about my past and secrets, or why should i pour out my thoughts and feelings to others, why become vulnerable... but then I realize, we need to, no? I feel like that is part of the force that connects us all humans together. 

There is a reason why I met you (: