break or blend

For the past few weeks, I've actually got bothered by the little things around me. 

I just feel so trapped in a system,
social norms for instance, what you ought or expected to do, or not to,
the feeling which you don't feel like you're in control of your very own life,
I mean I'm not saying that I like to be in control,
because He runs the game,
even though I must admit that sometimes I do want to be in control,
but it's just that feeling,
that leaves you feeling like there is no other way,
you must do this, or you must listen to what he or she say,
or else you can't move forward. 

There's this force,
just pushing me to a direction that I don't intend to go,
that's what's bothering me,
I am bothered by myself,
I feel like it's all in me, 
right?

How we end up here or there,
in the end,
it all comes down to our decisions,
whether we want to go with the flow, 
the flow of current that will lead you somewhere that you don't intend to be,
somewhere you could have avoided,
or,
to wreck that force that's holding us back,
trying, hoping and believing,
once again. 

Be brave, 

be kind.