I need a guitar

I don't know how to live,

with all the worries that swallow me up whole.

How am I to live, 

with thoughts of the sufferings that never leave me alone.

Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. 

- 1 Peter 5:7

21 Jump Street

These guys are crazy.

Just taking a break.

Anastasia

I just never thought I would watch it again.

This movie was so so long ago, all I remember was the song and how I was afraid of the movie because some of the scary scenes in it. Today, I've finally had the chance to watch it! It definitely reminded me of my friend, Amos, who absolutely like that movie a lot. One of the childhood movies of our generation.

"Far away, long ago
things I yern to remember
and a song someone sings
Once upon a December."

New Year's Eve

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Love turns the whole thing around. - John Mayer

I like how it seems like there's a connection between everyone in this movie.
Just somehow, our lives are all related. 
Every time you look at or even think of a face, 
hidden behind it there is a story,
everyone has a story,
what's yours?

The Vow

Life is unpredictable.

Now and then, 

you'll never know when the turning point is gonna be.
Will you be ready to accept it?

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The Perks of being a Wallflower

It's just a movie, that makes you wonder deeper about life.
Well, almost all movies does that huh?

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How stories or events that happened in your life shapes you.

It doesn't define you, it shapes you,

always shaping, always changing.

But also taking bits and pieces of what's left along with us,

not ever abandoning yourself.

It's a beautiful movie.

Friendship. Love. Life. Change.

Being noticed when you're invisible.

You breathe again.

Infinite.

Awesome.

God surprises me, every single day. 

Interesting how the things that's been running in your mind lately, appears right in front of you, by chance or by fate?

It was my first ever Gospel Choir concert! It was amazing and it felt so so good! It seriously was like a worship/concert. Audiences were like performers too, we clapped, we sang, we danced, we cheered, we worshipped, just devoting ourselves to God for how awesome He is.

I've been thinking a lot on what to do with my major if I were to seriously hold on to it.

So during the break, I got a chance to have a conversation with a friend of mine who was sitting next to me, Sarah. She's really a very nice person. We were having like the usual conversations, then she brought up about my decision on my major. I told her I didn't know what I would do about it and then the advices that she gave me were really helpful. 

What really inspired me was when she told me about how she just allowed God to just take over her life and lead the way for her. Although, the pay she gets/got from her job is not a lot, but it is enough, and the job that she does/did is just what she enjoys. Despite not being wealthy with money, she feels/felt wealthy with all the experience that she gained from it. 

The conversation with Nathan was also another inspiring one. Like when in fear or facing a difficult situation, and we don't know what to do or how to react, all we need is to just seek for God at that moment, pray and talk to him. 

His story was how he did his major for 3 years but decided to change it on his fourth year. He let God took over his life, letting Him to decide the path and the calling that is given to him. It was so inspiring to hear such story as I couldn't imagine the courage and faith one must have to just fight that uncertainty of starting off anew again. 

Another thing is I've been considering whether to live in or out of campus for my sophomore year. This topic has been going on for these couple of weeks. I was beginning to lean towards living in campus as I felt it was more convenient (despite the price) and also because I don't know how to look for an apartment out of campus, the details that I should know, those kind of stuffs. I don't even know if I am able to live out of campus. Girl here got loads to learn.

Guess what came up at dinner just now? A friend of mine, whom I'm not really close to, this was only the second time we chatted with each other, and she asked if I'll be interested in moving in to her place next year and apparently her roommate was there with her too. So we got a chat about how their place is, blablabla. Now, I'm back on the three choices. Ha. 

You are awesome.

Jackpot!

Suddenly this thought hit me, 

Does winning and dreaming to win the jackpot bring true happiness?

Haven't we all already won the jackpot, for being able to live, today, right here, right now?

A friend is a friend

I got inspired by one of my friend, for how he cares for the friends around him. 

It really takes up a lot of courage to help change a friend.

That dreadful feeling you have in the very core, 
that's waiting to burst out when the time comes.

And you know what's to come when it happens.
The change,
it's inevitable.

Yet, who knows
whether it'll bring peace. 

Confront or Ignore? 
To move on or to hold on?

SHOT

I've been wondering, what to do with my life?

MAKE SOMETHING OUT OF IT !

Breathe again

Once again, when I feel like I'm getting back together, something just comes up and ruin it. 

Amazing Grace

Today, the speaker we had was great.

It's just a reminder that we don't need to be perfect for God,
that he is already there, even when you don't see or feel it,
his presence, for you.

I believe in memories

Tomorrow, is the day for all of them, there.

What is the day for me, here.

You hardly even know

Time swifts by, fast.

No matter you're in Malaysia or in the United States. 
It's funny how there's only 5 weeks left before the finals approach. 
And then comes winter break! WOAW.

Wake up sleepyhead 

Better get going now before life passes by me! 

Who we are

The gratitude that gives you warmth.

Close your eyes, what do you see?

She was soooo good. 

"She is best known for her multimedia presentations and innovative use of technology."
The first thing that made me held my breath was her voice. It was so deep, dark, sexy?
Sometimes she'll end her sentences with a little husky-ness in her voice, and the chill that swims through your body. Candles were lighted all around the stage, it just illuminates with such glow that it was like a dream, with all the music and sound effects playing. For a moment, I allowed myself to drift into another place. I was absorbed. 

It was my first time watching a solo performance like this, 
never have I ever thought.

Peculiar Cow

A strange thing

1. The left blue slipper and the right black slipper was in my closet.
2. The right blue slipper and the left black slipper was not in the closet.
3. My toe was bleeding.

Conclusion : I wore 2 different slippers to the dining commons without noticing it and I still don't know what caused the bleed of my toe.

Heavy

I'm taking Intro to Sociology this quarter. I find it so hard to understand the contexts. I really do. 

I don't know what to do. How am I suppose to comprehend this? 

The thing about perfume

The most suitable expression for how I feel for most of them.

What then?

It wasn't about the meeting.

I am aware that I'm a pretty blurr person when it comes to listening to commands or procedures.
I don't know why, I just find it hard to concentrate when a person is conveying their message.

That's why I ask a lot of questions, it may be annoying, but what can I do?

A step backward, A step forward

Last night, I finally had the courage to search up for the volleyball try outs. I know it will not be easy to get in the teams, but I thought it was worth a try. I have been having doubts of myself for the past few weeks, cause I have no idea how it would be like here. I guess that this is so new to me, that I have to go give it a try? What I've found out was that the last day of try outs is tomorrow night. Thinking about it suffocates me, the fear, excitement...

Oh God, should I take the chance? 

Strange

I'm thinking what would make me cry when I get back home after being away for a year :

Seeing Nemo come up to us, hugging her, so furry and round while she wags her tail happily. 

Your arms around me

They will never fail me, 

no matter how far the distance,

I will make it.

I know.

Seeing A Merry Car

One of the classes I am taking now requires us to watch three theatre performances that are held in our school. So, today it was my first one to watch! And the thing is, I'm going all three by myself! I have always wondered how is it like going for a movie or a concert or even a performance alone. Now, after experiencing it, it's not that bad. It's like, it doesn't matter at all!

I was so tired by the time it was the second half. My brain was blank by then, nothing from the stage could enter my head. My mind was just dulled and dazed. It's like the blank moments you have when there's really good music playing? Yeah, it was like a dream. You feel yourself drift away with the music, but I'm pretty sure the show was really good if a person knows how to admire it.

Leaving the door open

Classes has begun. So far so good. I mean, I'm grateful that I'm learning.

Leaving my door open, I get to hear someone singing in her room so soulfully as her voice travels to my door. Something to enjoy while facing this screen whole day.

Little hope

Change. That's all I want and need right now.

Change is constant, but it depends.

Every train has its destination

I'm here.

I have left home, flew a total of nearly 20 hours flight, just to be here. The beginning a whole new journey. Of course I'm missing home. Although the home where my heart lays is far far away, this is home to me too. Leaving, was not hard. In fact, I thought I would tear up or even have the dread to leave, but no, all I wanted was to get on the flight, and go. GO GO GO. 

I won't lie, I did not sleep the night before my flight, which was 6 in the morning. Everything was too rush, I had to get my things done. Well, I did finish my main goal, but argh, there are still so much that are still left undone. So I guess it's all my fault too, always playing this game in my life, The Last Minute game. Ha, seriously, I love the game so much that I always don't care the consequences I'll get. 

My classmates sent me off that day. I was so moved to see so many of them there. Although I told them not to, no matter how much I know they would still come. I just felt so loved from my loved ones and I guess it's great cause that was the last memory I had with them before my departure. The gift they gave me was amazing. The first word that comes into my mind when I think of the book is 'Love'. This book tells me that we must believe that there are always friends out there that love and care for us.

Well, I guess I'm in a different place now. School begins next week and my roommate has contacted me and she seems like a really nice person. I really don't know what's to come but I will find my path and walk through it with faith wherever it leads me. 

From the clouds

Jack Johnson's music has been swirling around my life for the past few month, and yes it has become part of my life! The lyrics of his songs makes me smile sometimes, it makes you realize how similar lives can be among us all.

Cupcake

And so, the best part of my high school year just ended, staying through these eight months of school was just for this event. I guess, it was worth it? All I know is I wouldn't lie in my own face and say 'IT WAS THE BEST TRIP EVER' cause I had the best before and until now, I still know it was the best.

This time the trip felt slightly less extraordinary, I guess it's cause I cared less than I once had?
Alright, better NOT dwell in the less-happy side of the whole thing.

I'll be leaving in another two weeks. Well, looking forward to!

Today, please

I'm beat. After days of sleepless nights, it's all finally creeping in to me. My soul is tired. I never did realize that all this while I've let myself dwell into dreams that just got deeper and deeper. Now when it all comes back to me, Lost. I've always that we should live life freely. As free as we can, but I believe that I've freed myself from so much, leaving me nothing at all to hold on to.


Is it?

Lady in Spain

Bubbles of life

We're different, yet the same. Aren't we?

It's amazing how the lives of people around you can just move you and make you realise things that you've never noticed or thought before.

We had joy, we had fun

Just had a grrrreat trip to Labuan the other day with the volleyball team. Finally, the last year of my high school, I get to join beach volleyball for the second time! So grateful that we had that opportunity. Although we could have done better, but the journey there was unforgettable. I will miss them loads, cause it was probably my last volleyball trip before I leave. 

I love my life.

Presence = Present

My chinese teacher is really an inspiring person. The way she sees life and her passion for teaching.

Your presence is my present! 

Surprise me!

Well, after all I've been thru lately. I guess its time for a little surprise for myself. Tho receiving this book from a friend of mine was already a surprise.


Explore what happens when you stop paying attention to your life.

Thank you, Sun

All I need is to lay back and listen to Zee Avi's album and drift into a whole different world.

Never

Right after singing our choir on that day, it didn't feel like we succeeded. It wan just an uncertain feeling that shattered our hopes of getting into the finals.

Today, when the results were announced, we couldn't believe it! It was just so overwhelming. I've never cried during assembly, until today.

I love my life. 

Take care, Liana.

Fly away

welcome to the family!

Back on foot

It's been so long. 

So much to tell, but I just couldn't put it down on the keyboard.


School - I've finally gotten back to reality, I'd always think that going for competitions (missing school lessons) are just a way for me to live in the dream a little longer. Every time when it ends, it always end up leaving me feeling blank : What to do? Where to begin with? I felt so hard to concentrate during classes, always wondering what's the point of being here, my thoughts wandering around, it's like I'm there, but I'm not. Thank God, now I'm back on track, though slowly, but I guess I'll make it? 


A little faith and optimism should help, right?

Happy Birthday!

mad house

oh sayang, siboh kitak nangis.